WTF

I wish I knew what I was doing.
I have no idea how to be nice or selfless.
I have been throwing myself at this guy who seems to love me while he's with me and then leave me and forget me.
I am blogging... I swore I would NEVER blog.

Now I feel like it's my only way for someone to listen to my thoughts, even if no one is really listening or reading; it makes me feel better to get it out.

I'm all over the radar, ALL over.
I love him
I hate him
I want him
I don't
I need him
I don't
He makes me cry without even doing anything.

"If you want me, you better speak up; I won't wait"